You’re hurting struggling and keeping it all within; and you’re ashamed, pretending you’re okay and faking it. In my blogs, I believe I have presented my life raw, open, and authentic. At this present time, I am in a battle for my spiritual health against spiritual warfare. I can’t let the devil win. I thank God I realize it.

I am taking a sabbatical to rid myself of distractions and to focus on the Father, the Thy Kingdom come, transformation, and renewing of my mind. I desire cleansing in my thinking and a clean heart. I want whatever I think, do, see, and touch to glorify and honor God. Most of all I want to love unconditionally those who persecute me, hate me, and fake me. I am under attack, maybe because of the ministry God gave me, transformingtemples.com; The enemy does not like it. I don’t know. One thing I do know is that “no weapons formed against me shall prosper.” Isaiah 54:17. God will raise me above this and allow me to claim victory as I bow before Him, seek Him, obey Him and empty myself that He may fill me with His love, with His heart, and with His compassion. I want and desire so much more in this walk of faith; a faith that we so often take for granted and only touch the surface of. It requires us to go deep, to give it all up, not our will, but Thy will be done through us. I desire the fruits of a heart at peace with God and man.

This has been my struggle, asking God why we suffer so many injustices. Why after many years of humility and not lashing back are we still going through this oppression? Why do people deny it, lie about it, suppress it, turn the other way, and allow it? Why do they insult my intelligence with games that it does not exist? Why do people hate so much that they will let a nation tear apart to fulfill their selfish hearts? Why do people want power and control over everything in life? Why do we line up with evil instead of good, taking on Your stripes that healed us and saved us from our sins? Why do we say we’re Christians and hate people? These are real emotions that cause my heart to bleed.

I have offended some, I have judged many, I have disliked many, and I have not forgiven those injustices toward me and my people. I apologize. No excuses, no rationalizing; I am sorry. Life is what it is, people are who they are and I can’t change that. But I can change my life to line up with God’s will and His Word. I can love you as Jesus showed us, I can serve you, I can be light, and I can share hope which is only found in my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.  This is why I’m in seclusion with my Father, so He can help me to release my anger and frustration, but most of all, change my heart. I am human, I have many flaws, but I do keep it raw, open, and authentic. What you see is what you get.

Right now I am hurting when I see a world dying in sin when I see a church with no light because of its darkness. I am hurting when brothers and sisters in Christ turn away from you because they can’t handle the truth and make you the fall guy. I am hurting because of family, friends, and all types of relationships divided, terminated, and thrown to hell. I am hurting because our eyes are blinded because of our love for the world and not for the Creator of the world. We kill, we destroy, we divide and conquer all in the name of SELF.

So I must stop and do what is necessary to fight this battle. This is the time to examine yourself, purge, and cleanse yourself by prayer, the Word, by meditation, and communion with God. This is my time to let Jesus renew a right spirit within me so that I may continue to do the work He has given me to do. Isaiah 41:10 tells me to “Be not dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, yes, I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.” GOD holds me. I don’t live like the rest of the earth because God has chosen me and assured me of His love.

God is moving in my heart and my life. He wants to take Transforming Temples to a new place, but first He must do His work in me. The best is yet to come. Why? Because He is transforming me into what is His good and acceptable and perfect will in His sight, for me.  So, as I quiet myself, separate for a while with my Father, please pray with me. Better yet, I challenge you to search your hearts, go deep and let God reveal to you the things you deny, fake about, and just plain old sins you need to change. Proverbs 16:2 states, “All the ways of a man are pure in his own eyes, but the Lord weighs the spirits.” A person may think nothing is wrong with what he does; outwardly it may seem innocent. But God knows your heart, whether the motives behind your actions are pure or not. The Lord judges people based on why they act because He sees human hearts. Raw, open, and authentic, that’s me, what about you?