Heartbeat for God, Do you have it?

For those who have not received Christ as Lord and Savior, let me help you try to understand. Lord willing, you will open your heart. Give us a chance. “Us being myself, along with the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit. I am only a vessel He chooses to use for His glory.

If you have read my other blogs you know some of my testimony, but here I will go into more depth. I want to be raw, genuine, authentic.

I was a wild party animal, from high school to college. I loved to experiment with things (like cases of beer and weed) until it came to a point of controlling me and then I ‘d run. I did whatever I wanted to do, no matter who I hurt. Everything was me, me, and me. Totally selfish. But for some reason, everyone wanted to be around me. I was a social butterfly. The men just flocked to me and I just teased.

In all of this, I actually got bored and wanted a change, so, I enlisted into the U.S.Air Force. While in basic training, feeling overwhelmed and away from the familiar, I start praying in my own way. I joined the Chaplain’s group looking for something different to fill the void. In my travel around the world, I continued mild partying.

I came home, excited to see my best friend. When we got together, I thought we would hang out in some clubs, dance all night, and go to breakfast, but she no longer did those things. She was still the sweet, fun-loving person I remembered, but something was very different. I observed a more calm, peaceful, and serious side. I questioned her about it. She told me she was a born again Christian, attending a new church and God had changed her life. She did not force her faith on me. She did not need to because I saw her new lifestyle. It prompted me to ask all the questions. I saw God’s transforming power in her life. She spoke on the goodness of God, never overbearing me, just a little at a time.

Well, I visited the church she attended. I left feeling uncertain, but I came back out of curiosity and because of the great change in my friend. This time I went to Sunday school class and this is where it began. The Sunday school teacher taught with passion. It was easy to understand. She used other resource books for further understanding. Things were stirred up in my heart. I just could not shake it. I continued to visit and I started reading the bible. Then one evening in my bedroom, I got down on my knees and asked God to save me. The following Sunday, I made a public confession of faith. I began to read my bible with a thirst like never before. God gave me the gift of understanding most everything I read. So, that is a condensed version of my testimony.

Over the years, I have learned whatever trial I face, to keep my spirit calm by continual dependence on God, His power, and goodness. Rather than the old times of going through tumultuous and turbulent thinking and stressing out, I have peace of mind, because I am confident He can do what He said He will do and what is best for me. This strength carries me through all difficulties I meet. I have experienced genuine brokeness. God lifted me from the ashes of my life. I now arise in His Power. If you do not know Him, the Father of all creation, I invite you to trust Him. Take the steps below. It will be the best decision you’ve ever made. It will make life better and joy unspeakable.